Film review –

You guys don’t know much about me so I guess I should inform you that one of my favourite thing to do is to watch movies in different languages that I don’t speak and I particularly enjoy Korean and Japanese movies. Of course I watch them with English subtitles-

Korean movies-

·         Everybody has secrets

I have to say this movie is not something that would be maybe acceptable as a movie in Europe and the guy would probably be viewed as promiscuous and just another playboy using girls for sex. So the movie is based on this family with three daughters; older one married with a perfect husband who is a doctor – gynagolist but who refuses to have sex with his wife so she is sexually frustrated and pretty much feel like she is not appreciated then the second daughter is a singer who is known for being a bit of a fluzy and breaks up with guys when she gets bored of them and recently she breaks up with her bf cause he’s apparently too nice and a bit boring but the guys is in head over keels in love for her so she likes someone who would sweep her off by her feet and she wants the thrill. Third daughter is 27 year old virgin who is a bit of a geek and a book worm of that who has never wanted anyone she says she is not looking for a prince charming but still wants that thrill and excitement. The plot of the movie is all three sisters fall in love with that guy who is a bit of playboy and charms and manipulates all of them into sleeping with him. His line “surely you can’t be in love with just one person” by sleeping with all of them he gives them a secret each and apparently keeping a secret is not going to make you happy but having a secret you can achieve happiness. It’s a good movie, very promiscuous and quite exciting. I’ll give it 3 stars out of 5.

·         6 years in love

So from the title it’s about a couple who have been together for 6 years and everything is starting to sort of being a routine and the girl is going through a hard time at work and the doctor finds a lump in her breast and she starts to evaluate her life and then the sexless relationship goes even more on a downhill and the guy starts to have a flink with a girl at work and ends up sleeping with her who then has to leave to another country. Then the girl has some guy crushing on her and running after her and showing her everything her own bf stopped showing. The whole movie is about learning to appreciate your lover and if you don’t then someone else will but after they break up few years after they see each other and arrange to go on a date. So at the end it shows sometimes you forget how much you love someone but if they are still in your heart then you give it another chance and take a risk even if they end up hurting you.

·         Crush and blush

I have to say this is my favourite and its about a girl who is ignored by everyone around her and made to believe she is ugly and no one would even care abut her. But in high school this teacher actually notices her one day when she’s sort of behind the line and everyone ignores her he asks where she is so she realizes he is the only person that has ever noticed her and she fall in love with him , but he only feels sorry for her. Then years later she also becomes a teacher and teaches at the same school and still follows him around and thinks that he loves her too when he actually doesn’t. he has an affair with another teacher who she hates so teams up with his daughter who goes to the same school and makes the other womans life hell and at the end his wife finds out… the ending is quite unexpected and I love the movie and have seen it 20+ times.

·         Hello school girl

This is again one of my favourite movie. It’s based around the love story of two couples who are not the perfect couple at all if anything their relationship is not ideal. With the first couple the girl is a 18 year old student and he is 30 year old man who live in the same apartment block and they meet I the lift and gradually fall for each other. Of course with their big age gap so many obstacles come in their way but are they strong enough to pass all the hurdle and continue their relationship. Second couple is more of a tragic one since the guy sees this girl in train and falls in love with her but she is still heart broken by the fact her long term boyfriend passed away all the sudden and she stops herself from falling in love again but the guy never gives up on her. Will she ever learn to let her heart go …. I know from our culture the first relationship seems very inappropriate but the guy is very sweet and their relationship is very innocent and cute.

·         Seducing Mr.Perfect

WORST FILM I have ever seen but I want you to watch it just to see how bad it really was. Not even worth writing a review.

As I sit in the bus I see all these people don’t seem to look happy, I mean I know it’s a bit of a statement to make. But I feel like most of us just live just the sake of living. These days I just feel like im drifting along I mean im not all that happy or all that sad.  Being a grown up sucks when you’re a kid you don’t over think anything and live for the moment. I guess I haven’t given up hope yet and hopefully I never will because that’s the only thing that keeps going and I hope you never give up too!

In all these movies that I watch the girls spend so long with the guy they lose the sight of who they really are but at the end when they become independent the guy chases after her. Because what’s more sexy than an independent woman right? But sometimes it’s just nice to have a guy around because after all we are all human and what we seek is a bit of affection from the person we love.

It’s easier not to love since heart breaks hurt so much and you end up destroying part of yourself but why do we still run after it knowing that we are going to hurt?,  is the pain and heart ache is that just as addictive as the feeling of being in love. I can safely say I never been in love; is that out of choice well maybe or I might just be fooling myself by saying I don’t want it. There have been boys who came after me but with my luck it never worked out. Do you ever feel like something was just so close to you that you could almost touch it but in a second it disappears and leaves you thinking what the heck did just happen? Well that’s my feeling all the time.

Some might say I have too much of a high standard but I don’t think I do it’s just hard for me to be 100% interested in someone and trust me when I say I know I’m not a beauty queen or have it all going (well I’m not that bad looking either ) but I know it’s better to say no to someone than to say yes and play with their feelings and it’s not like I haven’t been turned down, maybe not directly but if someone seems interested in you then says we should just be friends well that’s a way of rejection right. Have you ever been rejected? But more importantly have you been in love?  Right now my love life is non-existent and as much as I hate to admit it I think it’s probably for the best because I still need to learn to love myself and if you don’t love yourself then who will.

 

So after a very very long time I finally returned to the gym and wow my body is in pain I couldn’t do as much as I wanted to but I tried my best and there are some things that I hate-

·         When they have radio on but it’s so quiet that you can’t even hear it over the running machine

·         When there are no hot guys and just two old men; I mean I don’t  go to gym to look at hot guys and all but seriously it makes you want to work out harder. Don’t tell me that’s not how you feel either!

·         I guess this one ties in with the first one and I absolutely hate when you have no head phones or even worse as today when your phone is about to die.

But apart from all those setbacks there is no such good feelings like after workout and I hope to carry on with working out and I’ll keep you guys updated.

 

Today my heart fluttered and I could feel my cheeks burning up so fast and I never experienced this before EVER!!!  Not even with previous interests. it was such a wonderful feeling it’s like something filling up inside you and it takes your breath away and you lose control of your face expressions and end up grinning like a Cheshire cat and my eyes smizing! These are the feelings I started blogging for so I can remember all of them . Btw I should mention that im still grinningJ  I guess I should give you back up story . He works at a library okay and I haven’t used my town library in years since when I started college we had computer facilities there and I used to love reading and would actually read a book every day but now I don’t have time and well life got harder so I lost interest but yeah I used to be in library all the time and this was like 4 years ago and he is the guy that you had to ask to use a computer for and I was so shy I still am but even worse.  i would sit on the computer front of his desk .

So today I been meaning to get a new library card and well I was sort of hoping we would run into each other and previously I have and this was during exam time so heck did I look bad!! So I wanted to look nice and put makeup on and everything and when I walked in everything looked so different and I was kinda lost and not even after the 4 th step I see him and  it made me jump and I walked in smiling like an idiot already then I spent 15 minutes walking around after I had found my book cause I really didn’t want to talk to him then I I used the 10 second  rules ( this is when you’re about to do something and your brain thinks of everything that could ever go wrong but this thought process takes 10 seconds so you just do it before the 10 seconds)

…. So I was like just do it. I was waiting in the line and I think my brain wasn’t working but he looked at me and goes “oh are you borrowing a book” I didn’t reply and then this woman called and was like oh I’ll serve you ( inside my head I was like YES THANK YOUUUUU)

But then she didn’t know how to apply for a new card so he was stood next to her trying to show her you don’t know how I felt I was trying to breath while trying to control my mouth omg!! It was so difficult. Then he just kept walking around and I made eye contact and he had the same cheesy smile as me#! Cute right. He jokingly goes look how much trouble you’re causing! I was like I know and he said you haven’t been here for a while right (OMG HE NOTCIED) I was like yeah 2 years and we talked a bit. Longest convo I had with him if not only one convo. So I said thanks and left ……….

I know you must be thinking it’s not like he proposed to her and asked to go on a date or anything but sometimes it’s the simple thing’s like what’s the reason for him to remember me after all these years and especially where I used to sit… you know its just a nice feeling to know that you do leave a  impression on people and not easily forgotten especially in these days when your own friends family the people you love forget about you.

 

I have a question to ask you what’s your fantasy ….. (erm not that kind) but like how you would like to meet a guy….. well if you tell me yours I’ll tell you mine.

I want to have the setting as a library and I want to be reading or looking for books and I want him to see me through the book shelves and between the books and I want him to slowly come to me and maybe comment about a book and recommend a book to me that I should which should be about love or a cute title and I’ll say ok I’ll read it and when I do I want to find a note in there wih a comment or something and I write back on the sheet… and he leave me a title of the book I should read and with everyone there is a note and after a while I finally meet him and well the rest should be …… I know I watch too much romantic movies but come on wouldn’t that just be perfect. I know relationships love isn’t perfect but it would go lot further if the start was set out more perfect ,

So now tell me what’s your fantasy and if it has already happened .. or are you still looking

 

Is it wrong for a woman to cheat when she doesn’t get any attention from her husband… marriage is for better or for worse I get that but woman needs attention, and appreciation from the guys in our life and most importantly we need to be reassured about our looks and maybe it is vain but if the one you marry doesn’t realize how great you are and forgets your qualities then is he worthy of having you. So if another man comes and shows appreciation for all these things should she turn it down and be loyal but be sad and not be fulfilled of her desires or should she go for the man who appreciated her and makes her feel like a woman again. If it’s a duty for a woman to be loyal then it’s the man’s duty to appreciate her and show her she is loved and appreciated.

I think my love or is still quite childish I mean I rather spend a day watching cartoons, animations than to go cinema and when I like someone I never think about intimate stuff you know I just want someone to hold hands and place cute little kisses on the cheek and to watch tv and forcing them to eat weird and wonderful things. I think I’m still quite childish and maybe it’s because I never had these things( well maybe that’s a lie ok I’ll rephrase it) I never had it with someone that I actually liked; its always just for the sake of it. Sometimes I just like the feeling of liking someone you know when you just randomly smiling for no reason and then realise it’s because you’re thinking about that someone special or when you hear a story or someone’s telling you something and it reminds you of him or just the excitement your heart feels. Well sometimes that feeling is good enough … I hope you understand what I mean.

 I wish people were like Facebook relationship status and would walk around with tags saying with a partner or not then it would be so much easier. I don’t know if he is single and well by the way he reacted to me it would seem like not but then again you can never be sure of guys right!!.

up to this point I had no idea what I wanted my blog to be about , all I knew was I had to write my thoughts and feelings but now I know what I want my blog to be about. So here goes my theory –

even though my life is nowhere near perfect or at a point where I want it to be in fact I’m actually disappointed by most things that happened, that’s happening but I never lose faith and always keep in mind that one day everything will fall into places as long as I work hard. I always believed that us humans are here for a purpose and we are supposed to achieve greatness and leave something great behind and to impact peoples life in a great way and this has nothing to do with religion but people always thing the final destinations or happiness gift is heaven but for me this is it I never seen heaven maybe it’s there may be its not but for me being humans on earth is heavenly. Trust me when I say my life has been nothing but a struggle and I still haven’t found happiness but for me god has given me few people in my life that are like angels to me. I think we hold so much potential to be great to be unstoppable and I want to keep doing thing to make myself better human and improve my health and mind. I want you to join me with my self-experimenting; thing of me as your personal guinea pig. Let’s just improve ourselves and always tell me the things that you thought oh wait does it really work! Or things like oh surely it can’t wait!..

Have you ever had one of those days where someone just ruins your mood for rest of the day? Well I had it today and pissed me off so much I was so angry.. and I was just waiting to go home and well another bad news I ordered a camera and found out I have to pay £100 tax like are you kidding me man! I’m broke as hell and I need to save up more and err so annoying. Oh well what has to be done is done so I have to pay and hopefully get it tomorrow. I have a day off Thursday I think so I’m glad and can play around with it.

Have you ever wanted something but when you finally got it you realize it’s not it. Well that’s how I feel I been wanting to start a YouTube channel for at least 5 years and when I finally received the camera that I saved up for I realized it’s not what I wanted. I guess I should give more details so I haven’t been doing well in my AS as I wanted in college and I need all A’s to get into university and so I need to resit few exams in the second year and I feel so disappointed in myself. Especially after taking to a teacher that basically told me I don’t want the A grade bad enough I felt my heart shattering and I realized you know what i rather not have a love life or friend or anything if I have to choose one thing its that I want to do well and get into university and this is my dream that will change my life forever so I decided to send back the camera that I wanted for years and spend that money on maths tuition. I have already found a guy who charges £15 per hour and well im going  have to give it all and I’m planning on doing the exams that im going to resit in the summer holiday. I hope you realize what you actually want out of life and continue to work for it without any distractions.

 

So my most searched question on google is “how can you improve your brain function” and normally I just get the super foods and exercising and all those that I know will probably work but not enough of a excitement for me to do and as for the exercising I keep wanting to start it but never seem to be getting around to it. But today I hit the jackpot and I came a webite called the www.thefeelgoodlifestyle.com which was written by phil. Drolet and I was drawn to the title on becoming superhuman.,… I thought heck yes! As long as it doesn’t involve some crazy stunts. As I continued to read this he starts talking about 16 hour fasting- I don’t want to copy what he talks about so im just going to link his page. But its basically when you don’t eat for 16 hours continually and eat at the end of it then continue the cycle. Thankfully you are allowed to consume liquid and the 16 hours can be also included when you are sleeping although sleeping for 16hours is just ridiculous. Some of my friends who fast quite similarity (for religious reasons) and I noticed how clear their skin gets as well as increased energy level and more productivity but as much as I wanted this in the past I couldn’t say no to food. But like I said in the past blogs I want to continue to improve myself so I’m going to give this a go and guess what im going to write everything I go through here and well and I’m going to follow phil who i forgot to say is very handsome and looks good enough to be a superman; well why don’t we all join in this journey and get a step closer to becoming the best version of ourselves.

So my last meal is going to be at 9pm so 16 hours from that is at 3 so I can eat then ,

I think for me it would work best if I ate a large meal when I finish the 16 hours then another one at night few hours before I go to bed. Its my first time trying something like this so hopefully it will work out.

So main things I’m looking forward to is things like –

Ø  Energy level increasing

Ø  Weight loss

Ø  Increase Productivity

Ø  Mental clarity

So this is my thought on our eating habit till today I always thought the whole 1500 calories a day and 5 short meals a day was the perfect way to be in a healthy lifestyle. But now the more I think about it and more articles and blogs we read we have been brainwashed by this lifestyle that’s actually like a caged animal that need to eat in a much timetabled manner. If you think about it the whole calorie controlled life style is just nonsense I mean people in different countries have different eating habit and eat less than us and yet seem to be healthier than us. I think we are too preoccupied by the things like having 5fruits a day, and to have 1500 calories and brain washed by all these juicing ideas. We are not caged animals that need to eat like a being with no common sense in fact I think we are over eating and eating too regularly. 

Love life- so this is an update for you guys so few days ago I wrote about that guy in library and my crazy ass emotions and everything ( if you haven’t read I already read it then come back to this) well I had already mentioned my bad luck with love and well this just seem to be another story to the list. So I gave him two chances to show if does like me or not and well he hasn’t done anything…. So that’s the end of that. Sigh I wish guys came with a instruction manual I never understand them!!